past tense

2004-10-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

I HAVE SHIFTED...
http://-paranoid.blogspot.com

2004-10-07T16:22:00.000+08:00

wee~
end of fucking geo paper.
the paper started at 2pm,
and at 2.30 i finish what i know how to do and for the next 30mins i was staring into space.
finally the clock show 3!!
i raise up my hand and get out of the hall.
surprisingly after i raise up my hand,
z.s, bryan, liting, lixi, w.f and a few others raised up their hand.
haax.
came home,
on the com then shermin called me to go c.p with her to eat.
since i was pretty hungry i went. =P
tomorrow the last 2 paper and freedom till the day the report book is back!
and then i will cry!

2004-10-06T17:46:00.000+08:00

had chem and physics paper in the morning,
in the afternoon had FnN paper.
before the Fn paper i read through my book but didn't memorise,
and guess wad!
what i studied almost all came out but i could't remeber a single shit!
anyway,
i finish the whole paper in like 10 minutes!?
ya! i finished it in 10 minutes!
but i can't leave coz we have to wait for at least 1 hour before we can leave.
fine~
waited and waited.
the fucking time doesn't seem to be moving at all!
i close slept for awhile and when i wake up only ten whole minutes passed!
and finally the clock show 3!!
when the teacher was beside me checking my paper,
and when she finished checking she turn around and she got a shock.
coz almost the whole class raise up their hand wanting to leave the hall!
wahaha.
the hall air-con is so fucking cold!!!

2004-10-05T18:23:00.000+08:00

[firstly,
fuck N-level.]
[secondly,
fuck dark eye ring.]
[thirdly,
fuck science.]
[lastly,
fuck F and N.]

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firstly,
i love 5566!
secondly,
i love their new album.
thirdly,
i love 5566 again.
lastly,
i hope to see 5566 soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

**----------------------------

2004-10-01T01:36:00.000+08:00

hello-ha!
i changed my template again.
ahaax.
ok,
i have got nothing else to say.
ByE~

2004-09-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

I LOVE 5566!!!!!!!!!

2004-09-28T17:19:00.000+08:00

night by night,
i wish upon a star,
that you will always be happy,
but as i wish for your happiness day by day,
my loneliness grew bit by bit.
watching you smile,
made me felt so happy,
but everytime i look upon you,
there was always something missing but i don't know what,
i don't know why,
now i finally know what's that,
and why that happen,
its all i wanted your love for an exchanged.

2004-09-24T17:57:00.000+08:00

broke the school rule AGAIN!
went off during recess AGAIN!
went out with kum AGAIN!
hahahahahahahahaha.
breaking the school rule is just so fun.
=x
heex.
wanting, diana, shermin, bryan, terrance and i think some other people went home too.
anyway,
went to bugis to shop and to take photos.
shopped till 2.20pm,
accompany kum to dental then went home.
ok.
typing this entry was a torture!
some mother fuckers keep chatting and chatting!
haax.
BRYAN you should know who is it la!
blehx!

2004-09-22T19:35:00.000+08:00

you’re forever gone ;
i know that.
but here in the real world,
i miss you badly.
in the real world, I’m coping badly with losing you.
what am I to do?
here in the real world without you?

2004-09-22T19:09:00.000+08:00

break the schoool rule again!
ran away from school during recess,
went ceni with kum.
meet wanting there to take photo,
we look so god damn spastic but it still turn out nice.
love kum and ting!
after taking photo ting went home,
kum and me continue shopping.
went to heeren flash and splash,
saw a top there that i like but didn't get it coz ah kum was nagging and nagging.
anyway,
got weixiang his birthday present.
next,
we went to wisma surf babe.
saw that top there again!
couldn't resist anymore,
went to try it and kum got me a skirt to go with it.
=D
after that,
we went to paragon to eat cakes!
god damn it!
we ate four slice of cake!
we couldn't finish it,
as usual.
was cursing and swearing because we were so god damn full.
and we were feeling very fat after those cake got into our stomach.
kum say she want to celebrate my birthday with me!
haax.
she say she will buy a cake and we will go to the playground and she will sing me "happy birthday song",
haax.
jesus!
anyway,
i guess i will be on a holiday.
my parents better not go on a holiday earlier then dec 11 or i will kill them.
=x
n-level is just around the corner,
my tuition teacher has been asking me to study study study.
ya i will!
from tomorrow onwards coz i am not going to school after tomorrow?!
maybe la!
let's see how is it.
school is boring,
plus those people in school it just add up to super fucking boring.
=D
enough of my rubbish,
shall get lost now!

2004-09-20T17:23:00.000+08:00

woke up at 7 today!
damn tired.
first 3 period was that big butt lesson and it wad totally boring!
almost fell asleep.
yawn!
hate big butt!
love to add "huh" lor" "meh" "mah" at the back of every sentence she used.
she is trying to talk like us so that she can communicate better with us?!
NO WAY!
it will never work!
and her english is totally broken,
i am not saying that my english is very good.
but as a teacher she use word like "over talk",
is there such word?!
maybe there is but it truly sound weird.
..........
finally the 3 period was over,
then english?!
1 particular period that i hate most!
yuck!
ok.
recess......
back to class,
physics..
maths..
chinese..
i love chinese!
coz i get to bully the teacher.
ahaax.
he is forever suan-ing me!
anyway,
ting, nut and me bring kum down coz she was going for her cello exam.
good luck!
ok.
went back to class,
ting talk to mr cai who is our chinese teacher.
i walk behind him and hit him on the arm.
ahaax.
then i tried to hit him another time but he block,
i turned arond took a chair and wanted to throw at him.
obviously i was kidding.
ahaax.
... ...
after lunch it was mariati period,
another boring lesson.
i took ting dict and started reading,
kinda bored,
so i started to look for words to scold people.
i look under the word "fuck",
there are words like "fuck about" "fuck around" "fuck off"...
so on..
but there is this word that i like best "fuckwit"!!
ahaax.
anyway,
i realise i was pratically saying the word so loud that l.f look said "oie jeanie! ni siao ah! always fuck fuck fuck!"
ahaax.
continued reading and looking for words.
saw this word "nutty"->somethign that i use to call nut.
guess what is the meaning,
weird and stranger person. (something close to this)
haax.
took weixiang(my jian fu) soccer mag or whatever mag is that and he started pleading with me to return him.
ahaax.
but of course i didn't.
he tried to call eugene(my husband) for help but too bad,
i as his wife of course he will help me.
ahaax.
anyway,
weixiang took it back without me noticing coz i was too engross in the dict.
heex.
close the dict and started talking to him and c.y,
and finally school ended and i went home.
yawns~
so sleepy.
shall consider whether to go to school tomorrow a not.
oh ya!
form next week onwards we can choose to go to school or stay at home btu we need a parent letter.
that will be much easier then getting a MC.
=)
ok shall end here.
tara~

2004-09-16T17:42:00.000+08:00

haven been to school for a long time.
ahaax.
what can be more boring then going to school! \(^O^)/
did not blog for the past two weeks excluding yesterday entry,
coz my fucking com crash!
although it is working now but it is still abit crazy.
anyway,
ah kum told me she has been gossiping about me in school.
bitch~
haax.
i too did gossip about her when she is not in school. =x
[[ah kum! i wanna so see your nephew!]]
baby baby baby baby~~
i only love baby when they are just given birth to about one to two years old.
haax!
nothing else to say!
bye!

2004-09-14T17:23:00.000+08:00

Everybody wants someone to l o v e .
Somebody they can t r u s t .
Somebody they can t o u c h .
Everybody wants to give their heart away.
Everybody needs a little tenderness.
To feel understood.
To feel passionate .
Everybody wants to be in love this way .
I know I do.
What about y o u ?
I wanna be somebody's babygirl.
I wanna cry.
And still feel beautiful.
Maybe I ,I really just wanna [ be myself ]
Am I the only o n e ?

2004-09-01T01:02:00.000+08:00

she is happy because she have him,
he is happy because he have her.
and so they live happily ever after.
tara! =D

my brother is kind enough to let me use his com,
but he ought to do so!!
coz i am his sister!
=D
he love to insist that i am older then him just because there was once when we went o the doctor together and the nurse asked me whether he was my younger brother,
and of course that idiot feel very happy lah!
but in true fact he is older!!
too bad!

i am utterly ashame to call you my friend,
seriously i am ashame to say so.

2004-08-30T18:16:00.000+08:00

on the phone with wanting now,
didn't go to school today and i heard a lot of rubbish!!
mother fuckers~~!!can't wait for me to get out of this school!!
argh!!
i don't know what to say except mother fuckers!!

2004-08-26T16:04:00.000+08:00

didn't go to school today,
coz there is this career talk or whatever shit.
stayed at home and sleep,
wanted to go out with my mum but lazy so stayed at home.
=)
anyway,
yesterday wasn't a very good day either.
first thing in the morning some idiots pair me up with "BRYAN"!
what the hell,
then later in the morning they pair me up with "EUGene"!
wad the fuck!
nevermind is their mouth.
can't remeber during which period ah kum saw me and eugene fighting then she say "whay don't you two get married then i and we xiang will go to your house and play!! that will be so fun!!"
eugene and i was like "why don't you and wei xiang get marreid and we go your house and play."
ahaax.
stupid ah kum!
then in the end sheeyin came over then we wei xiang and was saying "why don't you and eugene get married."
blah blah.
the last period was form period,
we had to go to the com lab to do some quiz.
all the Q is about history,
and of course for almost all the Q i use "tikam" la!
we had to answer Q and build thing like hospital, temple...
blah blah~
and those fucking building was so expensive!!!
=D
ok shall end here.
bye~

sometimes people around you may SEEM to be your good friend but in true fact they are NOt!!
"BEWARE" ('-^)V

2004-08-24T19:37:00.000+08:00

i simply hate school today lah!
so many fucking thing happen,
just one particular thing upest me the while damn day!
ok!
i shall NOt talk about it!
you people never fail to pissed me off everyday!
ahaax.
anyway,
we had this motivation talk at 1.35pm but kum and i went shopping!!
=D
who mother fucking care about the "MOTIVATION" talk?!
its more likt a motivation for people to run away from school MORE!!
haax.
i `m in a stupid school with stupid rules.
i`m in a stupid school with stupid teachers.
ahaax.
okok.
and i just heard that there are NO MORE EGGS IN THE MARKET?!
ahaax~!!!!!
what the fuck?!
ok lahx.
bye!!

("v")I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well
I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart
We might as well
be strangers in another town
We might as well
be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know("v")

2004-08-22T16:20:00.000+08:00

just change my template,
but i don't like the picture gonna have it change soon.
i ahve also change my blog music.
*wink*
anyway,
prelims has ended.
have been cursing and swearing alot these few days,
so i shall not curse and swear for today's blog,
ahaax.
when i was having tuitoon just now i took out *5566* cracker and pour it in to a container then i wash the plastic.
this is the first time i am actually keeping such a thing.
=)
and i good news to share,
my tama and nut tama finally gave birth.
but her's died the next day beacuse she neglected them.
=(
heex.
okok,
life have been terrible coz i sprain my ankle on thursday all beacause of ah kum!
shall not say anymore coz i kinda lazy.
anyway,
not totally her fault la.
=D
end here!!

2004-08-19T18:45:00.000+08:00

FUCKING HELL LAHX~!!

2004-08-16T19:12:00.000+08:00

AHAAX~!!
oh god!
i cannot believe i am using this background music.
because is JAY CHOU!
i don`t` like him la except for his song.
ahaax.
anyway,
i took it from some other people blog.
ooPs~ but anyway thanks to that person.
heex.
prelims has start,
don't know what to say about the prelims also.
ahaax.
this whole week i am going to have tuiton everyday except friday,
yawn.
i want to but more tops!

2004-08-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

i miss those days in my primary school,
i don`t like secondary school life at all.

2004-08-12T22:03:00.000+08:00

OK FUCK~!! I AM NOT GOING TO DO MY FnN ANYMORE~!!! FUCK IT~!!! THAT'S IT~!!! FUCK YOU PEOPLE~!!

2004-08-11T16:48:00.000+08:00

i LOVE *5566*!

2004-08-09T15:29:00.000+08:00

oh god oh god!
i have so much to say!
firstly i went to that fire works thing yesterday at ten.
waited and waited...
blah blah.
THEY CAME FOR REHERSAL!
watch then reherse for awhile then went back to sit.
3pm.. 4pm.. 5pm.. 6pm.. 7pm.. 8pm..
way to go....
ahaax.
we went into the barricade to seat and waited again...... [i was seating right infront!!]
8pm.. 8.30pm.. 9pm.. 9.30pm..
finally the thing started.
first was "RnB" then "Toro" then "Yan Qing Su" then "K1" then "Cyndi[she is so damn pretty]" then *5566* wee-u-weet.
oh gosh!
i can see them so clearly.
"fainted"
ahaax.
i am just so happy lahx~~

then today,
went to that *5566* party.
oh god!
so many people was already there.
nevermind,
so my cousin and i waited again.
then pong came,
not long later we went in.
waited again!
we was standing near the place where they walked in!
oh god!
can have such close view of them!
they sang and dance then they have this lucky draw thing.
the first to pick was *MENG ZHE*!!!!!!!
ahaax!
then they say the ic number..
first number.. sec.. third.. forth.. fifth..
and by then my heart was beating very fast!!
coz all the number said was mine!
then the sixth.. then the last..
bingo~!
IT WAS ME~!!
ahaax..
oh man!!
before that i n pong was like saying,
"aiya! we don`t have so lucky de lahx!"
ahaax.
oh god!
i am so damn happy,
some more is *MANG ZHE* take!
i thought i can go on stage to take the prize from them but don`t have,
the m1 people gave it to me.
sad~
but never mind~!
ahaax.
then when i was walking in front to get the prize.
they ask "where is jeanie? please raise up your hand."
ahaax.
then i raise and the four of them looked at me!
ahaax.
"faint"
weeee~~
then everything end le they walk out from the same place,
and i get to see them from a close angle again~!!
ahhhh...............................
happy!!!
ahaax.

i still don`t know whether to go to the NDP a not.
coz some poeple say they not going.
go or not to go~~
never mind lah~!
at least one and the half hour ago i saw them~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*5566* WAY TO GO~!!!!

2004-08-07T17:43:00.000+08:00

ok,
went out with my cousin today,
i bought four top and she bought 2.
blah blah blah.
came home,
then play com till now.
just now BRYAN sms me asking if i got go to the esplanade,
being a lazy person i lazy to reply i called him.
then he say he maybe going to queue later not confirm.
bloody hell!
ahaax.
i know you will be reading this~!!!
but just too bad that your name appear here~!
wahaha.
"go queue lehx! bloody kuku lehx!"
blah blah blah~!
bye~

2004-08-07T17:33:00.000+08:00

took this with liting on the day of that disco thing.

took this with pong. can`t remember where did we go. ahaax.

ahaax. took this with my darling. love the first and last pic. ahaax.

took this today wiht my cousin, git lots more but lazy to upload.

2004-08-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

my computer is going crazy agian!
so fucked up!
argh!
hell hell hell!
forget it~!
didn`t go to school today,
had gastric.
ok,
i got another thing to complain!
fuck!
got one person from friendster ask me to join the fan club,
ok,
i join then she told me i had to line up for that *5566* thingy for about 2-3 hours.
but now,
she tell my cousin say we have to line up tm; half day and sat half day.
if don`t line up tml then sat got to line up the whole fucking day!
seriously,
WHAT THE FUCK MAN!!
IS NOT THAT I DON`T WANT TO LINE UP BUT IS JUST TOO "LI PU" LOHX!
SAY ONE THING DO ANOTHER!
ok lahx!
whatever shit man!

going to school tomorrow,
good girl right?
ahaax,
lalalalala.
i can`t save my computer this time round!
sad~
after school going out with kum.
ok lahx.
gone~

2004-08-04T19:33:00.000+08:00

back to blog~
heex.
school was alright,
but during the morning assembly i keep covering my nose to prevent ymself from getting caught.
ahaax.
blahx blahx~
anyway,
went to orchard to do hair treatment with kum after school,
all the male hair stylist so "gay".
heex.
no offend~
lalalala.
after that went to heeren to take pics then went to a shop that sell a lot hats and cap.
* oh god * all of them are so nice.
kum and i tried on some of the caps,
then i spotted this bag and fell in love with it.
ahaax.
after much thinking i bought it,
then continue trying caps with kum and in the end we bought a cap each,
i bought the pink one she bought the white one.
after that we went to take pics wearing the cap!
=)
shall upload them later.
ah oh~
holy shit!
just remembered that i haven do my FnN coursework.
argh~
fuck!
don`t even know what to do~
hell!!

2004-08-03T18:58:00.000+08:00

came home not long ago,
went to jurong with pong n s.y to collect the *5566* tickets.
ahaax~
so damn fucking happy!
after that went to IMM to eat then walk awhile and went to hougang.
for what?
ahaax.
to get my nose pierced.
pong pierce to side of her ear.
oh god painful.
when i t was my turn,
i closed my eyes hold on to pong.
"bang" there it goes.
ahaax.
i open my eyes and i told pong "fuck! am i dreaming? gosh gosh!"
really sruprised man!
i actually pierced my nose~!
faint~
ahaax.
blog later,
tuition teacher come le.
bye!

2004-08-02T20:02:00.000+08:00

ok.
just came home.
went out with my mum,
shall go to point.
ahaax.
we were eating our dinner when i receive this call from duno who,
i picked up and this woman say "you have won 2 pairs of 5566 party tickets!"
wow~!
cool right~!
ahaax.
i was so damn happy man!
you know what?
i sms them almost everyday and its like 5 sms per time or ten!
ahaax.
i have never won such thing in my life before!
hahahahahahaha! =D
i so lost for words!
i am just way to happy~!!
bye~~!!!
* 5 5 6 6 * rock~!!!!

2004-08-01T16:02:00.000+08:00

deleted yesterday post because i don`t know what i was talking about,
ahaax.
anyway,
went to that disco thing yesterday with pong, sheeyin and liting.
when we reached park mall,
we was shocked to see so many people there.
but anyway,
the zodiac ladies ambassador caome to bring us to the place.
went in,
then i sms-ed yingting to see if she was going because i read her blog then she say she is going.
she said she was outside with kahmun and two other girls from our school.
heex.
then we played one zodiac game or whatever,
then had our tea break then we had the dance marathon.
ahaax.
and of course everyone danced~
pong and i was kinda pissed of by something,
wouldn`t mention it here though.
ok.
after the dance took group photos and we make our way home.
make a lot of new friends yesterday,
oh god!
some of them are so pretty!!
*envy*
this mornign when i wake up my leg was aching,
ahaax.
ok,
will not go on.
bye~

2004-07-29T20:51:00.000+08:00

doing my art now!
so tiring.
just now my daddy help me colour.
ahaax!
ok.
gones~

2004-07-29T16:50:00.000+08:00

(-.-)zZz
had chinese MOck exam today,
so boring, so tiring, so sleepy!
anyway afterschool went to cp with ber, pong, nut, ting, s.y to eat MOS burger.
after eating and lots of chatting the clock shows 1.35pm!
oh god!
so ting, ber and me rush back to school because we got chinese oral!
fuck!
when we reach the damn class the teacher wasn't there yet. (-.-)"
ok whatever.
seat in the dnt room and it is damn fucking HOT!
the goup yesterday had air-con ok!
but don't know what happen then today group got to go to that dnt room!
hell!
the teacher that test us oral so fussy,
wait want us to seat ouside wait want this wait want that!
argh!
pissed man!
waited for kind of long then is finally my turn,
yuhoo~
ahaax.
went over to read the passage then the conversation,
they ask about idol stuff and of course i mention *5566*~!
ahaax.
after everything the teacher say,
"wei se mo ni you na me duo er huan" [hope you peeps understand la. my hanyu pinyin not good.] =D
then i told her for get to take out and she say those examiners can deduct marks or whatever lah!
cannot even hear waht the fuck is she talking about!
speak so soft don't know let who hear.
after oral went home and here i am blogging,
and i haven bath yet ok.
ahaax.
ok,
enough of rubbish!
tara!

2004-07-28T19:07:00.000+08:00

yu hoo~
ahaax.
i am back!
had science test today,
didn`t study like i have mention yesterday.
ahaax.
anyway,
went out with pong after school.
to shop for my wallet and top.
when up and down,
left and right to look for my wallet.
heex.
went to many places but don`t have,
then finally saw the wallet and is the last piece.
ahaax.
so happy!! =D
ok.
after that walk around,
decided to go heeren to take pics. =)
will upload them later.
after that went to edo to eat,
pong working place.
her friends who work there so funny!!!
oh god!
make my tummy turn upside down.
ahaax.
left edo at around four plus then went to this fashion to look for top,
but don`t have anything nice so went to p.s,
and still nothing nice so headed home.
wee~
home sweet home!
ahaax.
ok.
gones~

[When I was just a little girl my momma used to tuck me into bed and she'd read me a story.It always was about a Princess in distress and how a guy would save her and end up with the glory. I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I want to be. Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me. I don't wanna be like Cinderella, sitting in a dark old dusty cellar, waiting for somebody to come and set me free. I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting, for a handsome prince to come and save me, on a horse of white. Unless we're riding side by side. Don't want to depend on no one else, I'd rather rescue myself. Someday I'm going to find someone who wants my soul, heart, and mind, who's not afraid to show that he loves me. Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am.Don't need nobody taking care of me, I will be there for him just as strong as he will be there for me.When I give myself then it has to got to be. an equal thing. I can slay my own dragons. I can dream my own dreams.My knight in shining armour is me.]

2004-07-27T13:50:00.000+08:00

yup.
had maths paper two and geo mock test.
i didn`t study at all!
ahaax.
i didn`t even open my book.
so i don`t expect myself to pass,
and anyway that is very much impossible though.
heex.
suppose to go out with pong and ting anfter school but pong forget to bring her stuff so in the end didn`t go.
liting and i wanted to go cp but in the end lazy so never go,
went home instead.
anyway,
s.y got the membership card already.
wee~!
looking forwad to this sat,
hope nothing crop up.
heex.
good news!
my tama n nut tama four head already,
ahaax.
very soon can marry le but it gonna be *jie di lian*.
ahaax.
obviously mine is older then nut's tama.
blehx~
going out with pong to get a tee tomorrow for sat.
gee~
=)
tomorrow got science MOCK test,
who cares!
what i care most is what time they release us!
so guess what,
school end at 11 tomorrow.
ahaax.
OH YAH~!!!!!
JUST BEFORE I END~~!!
I WANT TO SAY........... *HAPPY BIRTHDAY [MENGZHE]*~~

2004-07-26T17:36:00.000+08:00

some people got serious attitude problem!
don`t know why.
love to give othes attitude liek we owe them everything!
i simply don`t owe you my life! my money! my everything!
so just fuck off!
not only that!
some guys in my class is fucking irritating!
they love come to your table and ask stupid question like,
"you know this who who who?"
"why you look so moody?"
"why you buy this?"
"you go reborn your hair ah?"
what the fuck!
is that any of your problem!
that is my life not yours,
what right have you ot interfere when my parents don`t even ask such questions.
if not they will just come to your table and just beat you or give some stupid look and walk off,
nevermind, the most irritating part is they come to you and pull down your hair!
this simply something that i CANNOT tolerate.
what the fuck is wrong with you people,
hands itchy? for fun? or wad? childish little ass hole!
you people never failt o pissed me off evry single day!!
some just LOVE to act and talk big!
what the hell!
puke~
i don`t know whether is there something wrong with them or am i just to paranoid!
but i just simply don`t care!
and for friends?
i guess i don`t have much close friends or even none that i can tell my problems too.
yah,
there is but i only tell those minor problems.
i feel that some of those people around me cannot be trusted and some are hypocrite.
but back to say,
i am also a hypocrite.
i can be with people i really hate and detest.
see? are humans all like that?
who knows.
this is what life is!
who knows one day those people you think are close to you will just stab you from the back for all you know!
some people say,
friends want to come near you because you have money,
and when you don`t have money,
where are your friends?
they have all run away.
why?
because they cannot rely on you anymore for money and definetly they will go away,
for fear that you will borrpw money from them.
what the fuck!
i really hate that.
is not like i got a lot of money but i just detest those kind people!
you make friend with him/her not because of their money right?!
some people can say, talk about money hurt feelings.
and yah,
these people are the one who keep talking about money even one dollar.
ok. is not that one dollar is very small or what but do these people have to say "i still got one dollar, where is it ah?"
and if don`t get back that fucking one dollar they don`t want to eat their food.
so what the hell!
these people can borrow money from others and never thought of paying them back!
is not like others are very rich!!!
and as your friends of course the will not ask you to return and int he end who earns?
of course theone who borrow money!!
if that is the case i guess there will never be true friends around.
every one is so vicious, evil, hard hearted...
everthing bad thing you can think of i have almost met all before.
and if that the case i rather have NO friends~!!
sighh``
what is friend?
what is life?
what is love?

2004-07-26T15:42:00.000+08:00

back~!
the mock exam was tough,
but seriously who cares because liek i said it is a MOCk exams. =x
blehx.
anyway went out with liting after school,
i am supose to get a bag but we took alot of pics instead. =p
ahaax.
tara~

2004-07-25T22:05:00.000+08:00

yawns.
i haven study for my mock exams tomorrow,
and i haven finish my art and fNn.
what the fuck!
so many things to be done!
how i wish i can just die!

when i told you i love you and you asked,
"how much do you love me?"
and i answered,
"i will always love you more then anyone else does, if someone love you a million time i will love a million and one time."
baby,
you are everything, everything that i wanted.

2004-07-25T15:41:00.000+08:00

now doing art,
and FnN.
so tired.
yawns~
next sat pong, sheeyin and me going to some sort fo a disco,
ahaax.
because we join the zodiac ladies club or something then everytime they will have this kind of party to let us go.
heex.

2004-07-24T19:27:00.000+08:00

sobs..
my "baby" died!
so sad~~
when to school today to do art but i didn`t do anything.
anyway after art went out with pong and ber,
went to bugis then to orchard
when we was about to go to fifth level to eat,
i took out my tama then saw one angel.
sigh..
then reset the whole thing,
actually don't wanna play already but in the end also play.
i name it baby also.
to remember my dead baby.
=)
i swear i will not let my this baby die,
she must marry nut tama.
nut say we must let our tama from baby play till our tama get marry,
"qing mei zhu ma".
heex.
i`ve let my previous baby down because i guess i forget to feed it eat,
but i just feed it 2 hours ago.
sigh..

2004-07-22T21:27:00.000+08:00

sigh..
igor's closed down already. =(
no more small fry,
no more ezan ismail.
anyway,
rushing art now,
just take out some time to blog.
i am so tired~
feel like giving up everything!
still got the bloody mock exam tomorrow.
pissed~!
waste our time.
after the mock will be prelim then N-level,
what the hell.
i am falling sick again.
sigh..
so stressed up,
suddenly everything pack all together.
gones~`

2004-07-21T21:19:00.000+08:00

2004-07-21T19:17:00.000+08:00

pics of my ugly baby tama~`

#first try

#second try

#third try

2004-07-21T15:49:00.000+08:00

alohx ha~
heex.
in the morning when i went to school,
the weather was so cold.
brr.. brr..
my tama is such a PIG~!
wake up so late,
al my other friend the tama wake up already mine still sleeping.
'____'
ahaax.
feel kind of sleepy the whole day until lunch~!
wanting and nut pour water at me,
and i got so wet!
ahaax.
then bryan throw paper at me.
ass hole!
then i throw back but instead of throwing at bryan my paper always hit manfred.
ahaax.
then finally i hit bryan.
ahaax.
sense of sactisfaction.
=X
ahaax.
ok.
gones~

//See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurting while i`m with you
And though my heart can't take no more I keep on running back to you
Baby I don't know why you`re treatin me so bad
You said you love me, no one above me
And I was all you had
And though my heart is beating for you
I can't stop crying I don't know how I allow you to treat me this way and still i stay
Baby I don't know why you wanna do me wrong
See when I'm home, I'm all alone
And you are always gone
And boy, you know I really love you I can't deny I can't see how you could bring me to so many tears after all these years I trusted you, I trusted you
So sad, so sad what love will make you do all the things that we accept be the things that we regret too all of my ladies feel me c'mon sing with me
See, when I get the strength to leave you
You always tell me that you need me
And I'm weak cause I believe you
And I'm mad because I love you
So I stop and think that maybe
You can learn to appreciate me
Then it all remains the same that
You ain't never gonna change //

some pics of my darling and me~!

2004-07-20T19:57:00.000+08:00

ahhh~~!!!
my tama so ugly,
now it look like some sort of power ranger~!!
oh gosh~!
my tution teacher say its because i never scold her,
nevermind i will still sayang my tama de.
heex.

2004-07-20T17:18:00.000+08:00

something is wrong wiht my computer or this blog?
sigh..
so fucked up with almost everything~!!
didn`t go to school today,
twelve people didn`t go.
ahaax.
mariati called me AGAIN~!
and get me into trouble~
BITCH~!!
my two tuition teachers are in my room now doing my art while i am here blogging.
ahaax.
lalala.

2004-07-19T19:04:00.000+08:00

went to school at 7.10am today,
after so much thinking i finally decided to bring rabbit board to school.
after returning it to him,
he keep laughing!
hell~!
so much for being nice!
i am so tired today,
yawns~~~~~~~~ (^O^)
blahx blahx blahx.
during the last two periods which is art lesson,
i painted a few eye lash.
heex.
ok.
ku, nut, sheel and me,
is planning not to come to school tomorrow because our deadline for art is wednesday!!!
oh my god!!
i can never possibly finsih it!
and guess what we are suppose to pass up the FnN coursework on friday!
seriously,
what is wrong with the teachers?!
keep pushing forwad the fucking deadline!
fuck you teachers~!
oh yahx!
kahmun tama so cute,
got baby le.
heex.
but the big tama will die after twenty-four hours.
sad right? =(
heex.
anyway,
after school i put nut's tama into my pocket,
at first i wanted to play a prank on her but who knows i brought it home.
ahaax.
nut call me once,
but i haven reach home.
she called the second time,
i picked up the phone told her that her tama is with me!
ahaax.
she and wanting came to my house to take her tama after 5 to 10 minutes.
sorry nut~ got to make you come all the way to my house[although it is just opposite school] to take your tama~~
anyway,
i guess my tama got serious attitude problem!
ahaax.
tomorrow morning will be meeting liting around 8 or 9 plus to get paint for our art,
then my tution teacher will be coming over at 1 to help me with the damn board again.
ok.
i`m feeling very tired and sleepy,
gones~

2004-07-18T16:21:00.000+08:00

what the fuck~!!
something is wrong with this blog?
or is there something wrong with me?
ok.
anyway now i can blog i better make it fast in case this damn thing go wrong again!
since ysterday i have been doing my art.
so fucked up!
so many things to paint,
my back is aching again!
i`m getting old lahx.
can`t believe i stayed in my room for 11 hours yesterday~!!
oh god~!!
i broke my record~!!
ahaax.
luckily got my two tuition teachers to help me paint and draw,
if not for them i guess i am dead by now.
ahaax.
they gonna help me next week again,
but only on tues n thurs coz these are the only days they are coming for tution.
sigh..
i hope that i can finish the art by next week,
pass it up and i need to do my FnN already.
so manyt hings to do,
going bonkers!
partly is my fault lahx.
who ask me to do everything last minute.
sigh..
failure!!
oh yahx!
that bloody rabbit ask me to help him bring home his board from his class near the computer table,
i went to his class saw a board nearest to the computer table but there was no name on it.
anyway i still brought it home,
but he never come and collect it from me!
i don`t even know if it is his!
fucked up!
i am not goignt o bring it to school tomorrow for him!
if he wants it he better come to my house to take it if not leave it!
hell!
i have not been going out for the past few days!
this is a torture man!
no shopping!
i am going mad!!
i just simply hate evrything about school~!!
ok.
my tama spoil. =(
the bloody people don`t wanna change it for me!!
so went to buy a new one.
sigh..
my poor tama~~
i got to make friends all over again~!!
pissed~!!!
now my new tama is called *baby*,
and she is three years old.
heex.
ok.
my paint is gonna dry up soon if i continue blogging.
ahaax.
gones~~

2004-07-15T15:37:00.000+08:00

back from school not long ago,
was late for school this time round.
ahaax.
the first thing i step into class i saw ber, ku, bryan playing with their tamagotchi.
so cute~~
then went to make friends with them,
all also girl de accept for bryan and guess what his tamagotchi also pink!!!
ahaax.
oh gosh~!
i see le keep laughing.
during geo lesson,
terrence and bryan play with the tamagotchi,
two big boy playing,
oh my god.
nearly fainted.
ahaax.
after geo,
i n ber ran to berlinda class coz wanna make frens with her tamagotchi but mr lok was there so we went up to persis class to make fren with hers.
ahaax.
got scolding from the teacher,
so fucked up man!
but anyway persis pass us her tamagotchi then we brought it to class then make friend with hers.
heex.
during lunce,
wenrt to art room to take my board then saw geraldine then make fren with her pet too.
heex.
when walking back to class saw weimin fren taking her tamagotchi then make fren also.
ahaax.
mad right?
heex.
liting n nut wen to get theirs after school.
tomorrow wanna go make fren with them.
nut say if hers is boy she wanna marry all.
ahaax.
but cannot!!
she only can marry MINE~!!
ahaax.
i got seven friend le~!!

2004-07-14T19:58:00.000+08:00

Whenever i see you,
i feel the pain in my heart all over again.
i thought i had totally forgotten you,
i thought it had already been the past,
but i was wrong.
i had not forgotten you,
you had never been my past,
you never were.
you are the one who gave me love,
but you are also the one who took the love away,
leaving me with a broken heart.
sighh..
guess it was fate,
i was not the girl you were looking for.
i face up to reality and tried ways and means to forget you.
for the first few months,
it was really hard.
but after some time i thought over it,
i don't want to forget you,
i want it to be left as a beauitful memory.
but i can't even do it.
as time passes.......
i realise you don't even care,
i felt so useless and stupid to be here waiting for a mirical to happen.
mirical never happen to me.
sighh..
i decide to leave,
and move on.
its time to let go,
because you have found your true happiness.
thanks for being once mine.
("v")i have learn to let go, because i love you.("v")

2004-07-14T18:54:00.000+08:00

heex.
today mOod kinda good.
ahaax.
anyway,
i was NOT late for school!
so proud of myself.
ahaax.
ku n pong was later then me. =D
blah blah.
had lesson.
then recess, went to eat.
after that saw nut nut, ku and ber.
then nut nut say see who reach class first.
[we was using different staircase.]
ahaax.
then i and wanting took the stairs near the office while nut n ber use the spiral stairs.
so the four of us ran.
in the end nut and ber won! =(
ahaax.
then had lesson again.
went for english.
after that it was lunch,
ber, ting, sheeyin and me ran down when the bell for the sec 3 n 1 to go back to their class rang.
ahaax.
queue up at that wanton mee store.
then when the second bell rang,
which was five minutes later,
we order our food.
i took out a piece of paper with wanting, ku and mut orders on it.
ahaax.
then kean loong saw and he was like WOW!
heex.
eat le went back to class,
had lessons again.
after school went out with pong to get my *tamagotchi*.
heex.
i am so happy.
the *tamagotchi* is baby pink and my pet is a girl.
ahaax.
so nice.
hehe.
after buying,
we went to the food court to eat.
then walk awhile saw ice cream, =P
eat again then went home.
talk alot of craps in the cab.
suddenly pong talk about yan junjie!
ahaaX~
okok.
not going to say more.
reach home,
pong bring me up then she went home le.
heex.
oh yahx~
just before ending.
those peeps in my class keep making of shao.wei coz when he sing the AINI he pronounce the "with" as "wis".
so they keep laughing. '___'||
then got irritated by them but didn't say anything.
its their mouth wad.
gones.

2004-07-13T16:17:00.000+08:00

back~
was late for school again. =X
ahaax.
lessons, recess, lessons, lunch, lessons.
the last period of lesson,
some guys from my class heard that there is going to be a SPOT CHECK.
so those with hand phone, MP3, discman, faster find place to keep their stuffs.[i am one of them who got a MP3.]
ahaax.
but at that time i got a feeling our class won't spot check,
and in the end really never spot check.
ahaax.
bell rang,
then went home.
so tired~
seems like everyday i am also tired.
anyway,
later got tuition.
yawns~!

[why did you take away the love you gave me?]

2004-07-12T17:04:00.000+08:00

yawns.
had my FnN practical exam today.
shermin suppose to lend me her aporn but she was late,
so lend from liting.
ok.
oh god!
seriously i don't know how to cook,
and it was the first time that i cook those dishes.
for the first five to ten minutes or so i was like,
shit shit shit~ what am i suppose to do.
i cooked the rice but i add too much water so it became very soft? wet? ok.
whatever it had become,
it cannot be eaten,
that's all i know.
ahaax.
cooked my spaghetti,
but i realise i cook to little so i added more,
as i was rush for time so i turn up the fire because i thought that it can cooked faster.
so i went to cut the fish[make my hands stinks like hell!],
"Jeanie! Jeanie! your noodle burn liao."
i heard ah ber shouting.
turn to my stove the end of my noodle "chao ta".
ahaax.
then i tried to take out those noodle the at "chao ta".
then cook my salmon...... blahx blahx blahx.
after showing the teacher then i wanted to throw the damn food away but the teacher don't let.
so i took my plates to bryan table and ask him to help me throw it away plus help me wash the plate and put it back.
ahaax.
then went back to class,
had lesson,
so on....
then went home.
ahaax.
anyway,
ku, liting, nut,
blahx blahx.
is having their practical exam now.
ahaax.
wonder how are they going.
heex.
they only end at 5.30.
another 45 minutes or so. =)

("v")after a year,
i guess its time to move on.
its time to forget the past,
let the past be a beautiful memory,
not a burden.
you are one love,
that i will always remember~("v")

2004-07-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

went out with my parents and my younger brother to have dinner at kallang,
some where near igor's.
ahaax.
anyway, walk pass igor's and it was close.
saw the sign pointing upwards saying danger,
looked up and saw the glass cracked.
no wonder its close.
but wonder where have they moved to.
heex.
okok.
after eating,
bought food for my brother then went home.
called the maid down to take the food up,
and ask her to bring down pillows.
ahaax.
then my dad just drive around while my mum bro and me sleep in the car.
ahaax.
so nice.
the air-con is so cold. brr~~
around 9+ we came home.
got tuition tml,
after that got to go buy ingredients.
yawnx~
so lazy to go and buy.

2004-07-10T10:50:00.000+08:00

its 10.50am now.
been a long while since i wake up so early.
hrmm,
the wind is kinda strong than got the sound very scary.
heex.
today not going to buy ingredients le,
coz going out with my parents.
sorry ah liting.

sigh`
yesterday thought of the past then felt so sad.
anyway,
no point crying over split milk.

2004-07-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

back from xiao gang concert,
his songs are not that bad.
anyway, it ended quite early,
earlier then 5566 concert.
ahaax.
during the concert i cant hear with my left ear,
so is my cousin.
ahaax.
okok,
i am dead beat, tml still need to go find but ingrdients for monday practical with liting.
so tired.
gones~

2004-07-09T14:29:00.000+08:00

ok.
what the fuck!
today is that xiao gang concert,
and i only know it a few minutes ago.
i totally forgortten about this shit.
coz 5566 is NOT attending,
so is like what the fuck man!
anyway, i am leaving the stadium at 10!
i dont care if those peeps let me leave anot!
i paid the damn money,
so i can leave as an when i WANT!
ok what ever shit!
sisn go to school today,
i was having gastric.
ok. nothing else to say.
gonex~

2004-07-08T16:58:00.000+08:00

back from school.
had oral today,
quite alright.
ok.
mood wasn't really very good today.
don't know why.
anyway, school was the as usual boring.
and those guys in my class are irritating.
ahaax.
slept at ten yesterday,
tehn i woke up to look at my phone.
then there is one message fron dwaynee but i accidentally deleted it.
ahaax.
and i went back to sleep.
yawnx~
got tuition at eight.
so tiring.

2004-07-06T19:20:00.000+08:00

met pong at 8.30 in the morning,
went ang mo kio to eat then walk awhile.
intend to go to school during recess but pong dont want,
so in the end never go.
heex.
waited for the damn hp shop to open,
but wait so long never open so we webt to sit sit lohx.
heex.
then we took out our phone to play.
waited for very long then still haven open so we go macdonalds sit.
later on went to thomson to see doggie, then go SPCA and lastly go simei or duno where is the place to see doggie also.
oh my god!
all the doggie so cuteeeeee.
sigh..
wonder when then i can have a pet dog.
ok.
anyway,
went back to ang mo kio to see the hp then after that went home le.
suppose to have tuition but my brother dont want so cancel,
change to tomorrow.
yawnx~~~

2004-07-05T19:36:00.000+08:00

heya~
back from shopping!
heex.
met liting at 12+ then went to ang mo kio central to meet pong.
then go see phone.
heex.
got the same phone as pong.
copy cat horx.
anyway, after that go to the bubble tea place eat.
after that went to far east, bought two shirt and one pair of earring then to heeren and lastly bugis.
ahaax.
took some ohtos will u load later.
bye~

2004-07-04T21:46:00.000+08:00

ok.
my bro is back.
he came back only this morning.
not going to say anymore.
today dont have tuition coz everyone was very tired,
and i only slept at 6.45am in the morning.
yawnx.

2004-07-04T00:45:00.000+08:00

i don`t know wad the fuck is wrong with my brother.
we went to east coast to eat coz he say he wanna eat peking duck out of the sudden.
anyway, my dad brought us there with my eldest cousin.
reach there, he fucking give all of us black face!
all he do is keep quiet and he never even touch the food!
what the fuck man!
ok nvm.
my dad ask him to eat he give my dad black face when he is already very angry.
finally he cant take it anymore, so he just say him and my fucking brother ran off.
my cousin chase after him and later on my mum went too.
later on the maid and my lil` brother went down too.
and the table is only left wiht my dad and me.
ok.
my mum came back and later on my dad ask me to go down to ask my cousin to come up.
then i tried to call my tuition teachers to see if my brother called them but he didn't.
i sms him, called him but he fucking off his phone.
after eating we went home, i tried to call him so many times but his fucking phone is still off.
i was thinking if his phone low batt.
but it can`t be it coz before he left i still saw him using his fucking phone.
i thought he will call me, coz usually he does, but he didn't.
from 8 or 9+ i have een waiting for him to call but he didnt.
even now my mum also went out to look for him.
what the fuck!
last time i did the same thing and he know how to reprimand me but now, he also did the same thing.
i am fucking pissed and fucking worried.

2004-07-03T17:51:00.000+08:00

wee!
back from wild wild wet.
ahaax.
kinda fun norhx, but we didn't play alot of games coz there are only three of us.
anyway, we still had fun.
those life guards there love to splash water at us.
don't know why also.
then sheeyin was liek saying do we have "please splaash us" this three words on our face?
ahaax.
okok.
at around 4+ we left.
went to eat then come home le.
i got sunburn again!
so pain, my face and hands so reddish.
ahaax.
but very soon it will turn black.
sigh...
second time already, first wad 5566 de.
heex.
but that was worst lahx.
ok. gonez~

2004-07-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

yeah~!
will be going to wild wild wet tomorrow.
ahaax.
the few of us keep saying wet wet wild.
don`t know why also.
muxt be some kind of virus.
ahaax.
anyway, only three peopl will be going.
sian right?
coz many people can't go so no choice,
even my darling ah ku also not going, she say is stupid.
ahaax.
anyway, hope we have fun lahx.

oh yahx~! i am going to xiao gang concert. =X
coz..... 5566 is going!!!
where ever that is 5566 there is me~!!
ahaax. blehx~!
after that got the NDP, but also not sure whether they got go not.
and alan told me that they are going for some NKF thingy or wadever.
ahaax.
but i don't know how to get the ticketx. =X
ok. end here!!
tatax~~~~~~~

2004-07-02T19:16:00.000+08:00

Yawns~
i`m dead beat.
AS USUAL LATE FOR SCHOOL!
HAHAHAHA~
this time we went to 7-11 before going to school.
anyway, school was boring!
i hate my maths teacher!
lalala.
pong and i slept for the last two period.
ahaax.
we are super tired!
okok.
went to wisma with ku after school,
when out of school to wait for a cab,
wait damn long!
saw dwayne riding bike with a few of his friends.
and instead of saying "hi" he stick out his tongue at me!
okok.
i and ku walk to the back of our school to see if there is any cab.
after waiting for like 15-20mins we finally got a damn cab!
so went down to wisma,
ku n i was like playing in the cab when the driver say
"no fighting here ah"
what the hell! we wasn't fighting in the first place.
and the driver keep singing. yucks!
anyway got down and went to get my shorts from surf babe.
ahaax.
finally i got my shorts.
went to taka, ku got her dress.
then to heeren and off to ceni to take pics.
=)
and off we went. heex~
gones~~~

2004-07-01T17:26:00.000+08:00

hey~
as usual i was LATE for school.
ahaax. who cares. lalala.
school was ok.
anyway, went out with liting after school to heartland mall.
actually wanted to go toen butin the end laxy then never go.
ahaax.
haven do my FnN time plan or wadever is that.
argh~
pissed off with that big ass!

2004-06-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

one egg take 4 minutes to cook.
five eggs take how long to be cooked?

2004-06-30T15:05:00.000+08:00

heex.
today late for school.
ehx or rather i have always been late for schoo.
anyway who cares, no more dentention already.
even if have i also wont go.
ahaax.
went home early today coz got dental appointment.
i am so fucked up with my school clerk.
she don't let me go off, unless my mum come to fetch me.
what the fuck man!
i went to tell my form teacher about it then she say "i will call the clerk"
but that fucking clerk keep saying cannot, damn pissed off witht that bitch!
in the end i told my teacher that i ask my maid to come down lahx.
my teacher called the clerk [not the same one].
and finally i am off.
but there was NO CAB! i waited for like half an hour before i could get a damn cab. nvm.
the driver drive at 60km/h. oh my god!
i was like fuck fuck fuck!!
ahaax.
and by the time i reach the place i was already late by an hour and i still got to wait for another half an hour before its my turn.
argh!
so damn bloody fucked up!
and i HAVEN DO MY FnN~~
HELL HELL HELL~!!

oh oh~~ got to thanks liting oh~
she pei wo walk up and down the whole school to look for out teacher. =)

gones~

2004-06-29T22:55:00.000+08:00

WOW~!
BLACKOUT~!!
oh my god.
just now when i was in my room, the whole sengkang blackout.
even katong and bedok area also.
oh gosh wonder what happen,
but as long a as my light back i am contented.
ahaax.

okok.
hrmm, suddenly i remember something,
yesterday when i went out with kuku we saw this little boy that look like him.
ahaax.
lalala.

school was boring, feeling so tired the whole day.
but tomorrow i will be leaving early.
ahaax.
coz i got my dental appointment.
yeahx! =X

i m gonna give an excuse to the big butt teacher tomorrow that today got blackout so i never do the FnN.
ahaax.
do you think it will work?
ehx. i guess so lahx huh.
hahax.
okok. that's all for today.
bye~~~~~~~~~~~~

I LOVE ELECTIRCITY~!!!!

2004-06-28T19:36:00.000+08:00

yawnx~
just finish bathing, so tired.
hrmm, meet pong in the morning and we went to school together.
ahaax.
the moment i step into class i start laughing,
i don't know why. =X haax.
oOoo. many people have change their hairstyle.
but the weirdest hairstyle i think i shermin de. =X
don't know why but just find it weird.
ok. when i am in school, i keep wondering am i dreaming?
haax. coz i just can't believe that i am in school wearing the stupid school uniform. ahaax. lalala.
after school suppose to go out with shermin but in the end i went out with kuku. =X
anyway, we went to heeren to take pics.
so happy, coz its been a long time since i took pic.
after that went to crystal jade to eat. yum.
after that shop for awhile more, and we make our way home.
both of us fell asleep in the taxi,
so can you imagine how tired we was.
ahaax.

oh no. i can't watch 5566 show today.
as i am having tuition. argh. hell!
the show start at 8.10pm and end at 10pm.
and my tuiton start at 8pm and end at 10pm.
argh.
if i want to watch the reapeat one, i got to wait till kinda late. sigh....

2004-06-27T23:12:00.000+08:00

heyhey~
my taggie is up.
ahaax. i am so happy. heex.
but it look weird. nevermind give me some time and i will change it. heex. ok. got to run.

haa

2004-06-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

sigh..
did a new blog but i can't put the tag board up,
what the hell.
i have been sitting in front of this dumb com whole day long,
trying to do a new blog because i simply can't get into my old blog.